Well, I guess it is better to have loved and lost then not have have loved at all! But I guess my biggest issue is, why do I always let women take advantage of me? Am I trying to pay for some deadly sin in my past?
Prime example, in my most recent relationship, we used to spend a lot of time together, just me and her, she had a 15 yr old living with her, then we moved in together - my house initially, then, all of her other children moved in, now there is no time for us, the kids never paid a damn bit of rent never offered to help for the groceries, drove my car free of charge, virtually everything for free! One of the kids even stole things from me - like my fathers watch that I will never see again!
I just wish I had some more money saved up, I would just move out, the hell with everything! But each day, I keep trying, and nothing ever really changes! Yes, I tried to address the issue. We even had an agreement over a year ago that if one of the kids were to move back - that would be the end of things! Well, 2 moved back, and here I am... I have had it!!!
Boy it felt good to get this off of my chest! Thanks for listening!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
A little about my work experience
I spent about 28 years in the IT field. In 2002, the majority of the work went off shore to India. Corporate was on it's way to down sizing the work force in hopes of saving all this money! I believe that they have succeeded in bringing down the working class middle America.
At this venture in my life, I really was unable to find more work! I must have sent out 400 resumes all over! The typical response back was that I was "Over Qualified". In other words, I was to old! I did manage to pick up a few contracts here and there, but for the most part, I have been installing satellite dishes for DTV (Mastec). I started out doing this at age 50! Climbing roofs, crawling under houses, wall fishing lines. It is simple, but yet, at times physically demanding work! I have been bitten 3 times by spiders (yes, the dreaded "Brown"), almost lost my thumb cutting a pole, have slid off of a roof and bitten by so called friendly dogs and a whole lot more. I worked my way up to the position of Field Supervisor! I was one of 8 or 9 Field Supervisors! But myself and another Field Supervisor were the only 2 that really did their job! The rest of the supervisors would go home and hang out at their houses, or sneak off to the poker room and play cards. Now, cuts came to DTV when AT&T bought out (or rather merged with) Bell South! AT&T had partnered with Dish Network, and Bell South had Partnered with DTV! So consequently, we lost 40 - 50% of our work orders as of the 1st of April when this occurred! This meant cut backs! So what Mastec did was to cut Supervisors by Seniority rather than job performance! They did not want law suits by "minorities". So, once again, my position was eliminated. I wanted to go back into the field, but the company felt that because of my computer knowledge, I was more valuable in the office as a Router! I later found out that they felt I was to old to be in the field! So, now, I am routing for technicians! I was told, that when there was another opening for a Supervisor, I would be getting my old job back. Well, they are in the process of getting rid of another supervisor (another long story), and yes, you guessed it, I am to valuable as a router! So, this other supervisor who did a voluntary demotion, was moved back! I am seriously considering playing the age card! But I probably won't as I do have a job!
So there you have it, a little more background. This is all going to fit together in my daily rantings. I felt it is important to know a little about me first! I think the next entry is either going to be about my stupid decisions in love or music...
At this venture in my life, I really was unable to find more work! I must have sent out 400 resumes all over! The typical response back was that I was "Over Qualified". In other words, I was to old! I did manage to pick up a few contracts here and there, but for the most part, I have been installing satellite dishes for DTV (Mastec). I started out doing this at age 50! Climbing roofs, crawling under houses, wall fishing lines. It is simple, but yet, at times physically demanding work! I have been bitten 3 times by spiders (yes, the dreaded "Brown"), almost lost my thumb cutting a pole, have slid off of a roof and bitten by so called friendly dogs and a whole lot more. I worked my way up to the position of Field Supervisor! I was one of 8 or 9 Field Supervisors! But myself and another Field Supervisor were the only 2 that really did their job! The rest of the supervisors would go home and hang out at their houses, or sneak off to the poker room and play cards. Now, cuts came to DTV when AT&T bought out (or rather merged with) Bell South! AT&T had partnered with Dish Network, and Bell South had Partnered with DTV! So consequently, we lost 40 - 50% of our work orders as of the 1st of April when this occurred! This meant cut backs! So what Mastec did was to cut Supervisors by Seniority rather than job performance! They did not want law suits by "minorities". So, once again, my position was eliminated. I wanted to go back into the field, but the company felt that because of my computer knowledge, I was more valuable in the office as a Router! I later found out that they felt I was to old to be in the field! So, now, I am routing for technicians! I was told, that when there was another opening for a Supervisor, I would be getting my old job back. Well, they are in the process of getting rid of another supervisor (another long story), and yes, you guessed it, I am to valuable as a router! So, this other supervisor who did a voluntary demotion, was moved back! I am seriously considering playing the age card! But I probably won't as I do have a job!
So there you have it, a little more background. This is all going to fit together in my daily rantings. I felt it is important to know a little about me first! I think the next entry is either going to be about my stupid decisions in love or music...
Monday, May 19, 2008
You Have to Start Somewhere
As the saying goes, we all have to start somewhere and we have to carl before we can walk and run.
I guess my intent on this, is to make this more of a daily diary for me and my life. There are many things that I am thinking of and going through at the moment, and maybe this will be good therapy for me!
As you can tell from my picture, I am a musician. I have been playing since I was about 12 and it is difficult to believe I am 56 as I am writing this! I have played professionally and then only on weekends. I have been trying to find a few guys that would be interested in playing, but for some reason in Jacksonville were I live, they say they take their music serious, but they really do not! They just want to practice, or it is only play the songs that they want to play. So, I Have written a few original songs, and I am in the process of recording them. Maybe sell them on I-tunes! My goal is not to be famous, but just popular enough to be able to play music full time! I would love to be able to do this. To be able to have a small following and play small coffee shops and pubs and just make a living doing what I love to do!
My day job absolutely sucks, and that will be a subject of a future post, but for now, I at least have gotten a post out there!
I hope who ever reads this, has a great day! May their life be happier and more satisfying than mine has been! Don't get me wrong, life is good, but as of late, everything I touch turns to crap!
I guess my intent on this, is to make this more of a daily diary for me and my life. There are many things that I am thinking of and going through at the moment, and maybe this will be good therapy for me!
As you can tell from my picture, I am a musician. I have been playing since I was about 12 and it is difficult to believe I am 56 as I am writing this! I have played professionally and then only on weekends. I have been trying to find a few guys that would be interested in playing, but for some reason in Jacksonville were I live, they say they take their music serious, but they really do not! They just want to practice, or it is only play the songs that they want to play. So, I Have written a few original songs, and I am in the process of recording them. Maybe sell them on I-tunes! My goal is not to be famous, but just popular enough to be able to play music full time! I would love to be able to do this. To be able to have a small following and play small coffee shops and pubs and just make a living doing what I love to do!
My day job absolutely sucks, and that will be a subject of a future post, but for now, I at least have gotten a post out there!
I hope who ever reads this, has a great day! May their life be happier and more satisfying than mine has been! Don't get me wrong, life is good, but as of late, everything I touch turns to crap!
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